Blur

When you don’t do much with each day, it all sort of becomes a blur. You lose track of days, you space out a lot, you forget things, and your sleep schedule is ruined. That’s me lately.

I feel like this topic is similar to every other post on this blog. I’m going to keep ploughing ahead though, because if I don’t I’m never going to update this blog.

My life has turned into a loop of getting up in the afternoon, the day going by ridiculously fast despite it being almost all waiting for something to happen, and then spending the night on the computer after everyone else has gone to bed trying to remember what I wanted to do, then finally I go to bed a couple hours before my dad gets up for work. Then the cycle repeats. It’s very discouraging for someone with my personality type, but I’m hoping that’ll change once my computer arrives and I don’t have to wait until after everyone is in bed to go online.

Earlier today I was thinking about this blog and all the stuff I’ve written so far. Have I always made such drastic claims and assessments about myself? Am I still doing that, Future Liam? I’m hoping I’ll grow out of that. I am still quite young, after all.

I don’t know what to do with my waiting period still. I know there’s nothing I should be doing, but I hate waiting and wasting time. The biggest thing I have going on is Inktober, and that’s not big at all. It’s frustrating.

My headspace is so out of it that typing this post has taken days. Especially as I’m writing this very moment on no sleep – I stayed up last night because there was no point in sleeping at four in the morning after having gotten up in the middle of the afternoon.

So, in conclusion, life is kind of a blur and I don’t know where to focus myself. That seems to be my habit right now – let me know if I improve, Future Liam, because I definitely need to.

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5 Replies to “Blur”

  1. K. Liam.
    I know you got this, you are an incredible person, try to find that flame you once had. The desire to do incredible things. You have so much potential. Try to find that and focus your time on something amazing. Maybe start a business of some type. The internet is a place businesses can fly at a low to non existent cost. I’m sure you can find something meaningful to dedicate your time towards.
    I have faith in you 🙂

    1. That comment made me smile. 🙂

      I’m trying to find that drive again, but it seems like it’s just out of reach, teasing me that I might be able to reach it… I know it’s probably just me stewing over all you guys going off to college and getting jobs and moving on with your lives while I haven’t yet, and I know I’m in process, but I hate waiting. xD

      That’s a good idea about starting a business, of sorts, anyway. Probably that would be selling artwork since that’s what I know I can do reasonably well. I’m hoping things will turn around for me once the laptop I ordered comes in next week. 🙂

      1. If you hate waiting, then stop 😛 Just decide you are done with procrastination. Easier said than done, I know. But force yourself day by day to do something more productive. Also Etsy is a great place to sell creative things. You could also try making youtube videos. Talk about things in your life, I promise there will be people you will intrigue with it.

      2. I am actually working on YouTube videos lol, I have one on my channel (not the old one) and I had to wait until I had my laptop to make any more. Now I just have to finish writing some content.

        Your comments are awesome, by the way. I write these posts expecting no one but my mom to read them and then I see your comments, and they’re insightful and inspiring and make me smile. So yeah, thank you 🙂 I’ll stop being mushy now xD

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