When you don’t do much with each day, it all sort of becomes a blur. You lose track of days, you space out a lot, you forget things, and your sleep schedule is ruined. That’s me lately.
I feel like this topic is similar to every other post on this blog. I’m going to keep ploughing ahead though, because if I don’t I’m never going to update this blog.
My life has turned into a loop of getting up in the afternoon, the day going by ridiculously fast despite it being almost all waiting for something to happen, and then spending the night on the computer after everyone else has gone to bed trying to remember what I wanted to do, then finally I go to bed a couple hours before my dad gets up for work. Then the cycle repeats. It’s very discouraging for someone with my personality type, but I’m hoping that’ll change once my computer arrives and I don’t have to wait until after everyone is in bed to go online.
Earlier today I was thinking about this blog and all the stuff I’ve written so far. Have I always made such drastic claims and assessments about myself? Am I still doing that, Future Liam? I’m hoping I’ll grow out of that. I am still quite young, after all.
I don’t know what to do with my waiting period still. I know there’s nothing I should be doing, but I hate waiting and wasting time. The biggest thing I have going on is Inktober, and that’s not big at all. It’s frustrating.
My headspace is so out of it that typing this post has taken days. Especially as I’m writing this very moment on no sleep – I stayed up last night because there was no point in sleeping at four in the morning after having gotten up in the middle of the afternoon.
So, in conclusion, life is kind of a blur and I don’t know where to focus myself. That seems to be my habit right now – let me know if I improve, Future Liam, because I definitely need to.